I remember the first day we met, you followed me for 6 hours, I ignored you
I remember you begging for my number
I remember enjoying the feeling
I remember our first date, you couldn’t stop smiling
I remember the first time you held my hand and we walked down the pier
I remember feeling careless and carefree, it didn’t matter who saw us, all that mattered was you
I remember the hours on the phone, the lack of sleep
I remember sneaking out of the house, stolen moments sitting in the car outside
I remember the presents, so many presents
You were so solemn when you took my hands in yours and looked at me and told me that you loved me
Im sorry I laughed but I was too nervous to do anything else
I remember the moment I fell in love with you
I remember crying when I told you that I loved you
I remember your smile
I remember the day we almost got caught, you held me close as I panicked
I remember the day your dad called mine, I sat there on the phone with you feeling sick. My stomach was turning inside out.
I remember spending hours talking to you about our life together and how wonderful it was going to be.
I remember the day I found out you spent the night with her
It felt like someone had punched me in the guts and pulled my heart out of my chest
I remember you denying anything happened
I remember the months apart and the fighting
I remember them telling me I was stupid to trust you again
I remember you smiling at me telling me that you loved me
I remember the final plans to be married
I remember looking at you, and feeling as if you were a stranger
I remember saying goodbye to you
I remember being your friend
I remember the hours on the phone and the I love you at the end of the call
We just friends right?
I remember the day before you wedding, we cried for hours.
Why were you crying?
I remember you and her calling me when you were married
I remember the years in between when we were not in touch
Sometimes I’d wonder how you were, most of the time I didn’t even remember you
I remember your divorce
I remember feeling guilty though I had nothing to do with it
I remember the calls
I remember hating you
I remember missing you
You were my best friend. No one knew me like you did even after all that time
I remember the accident
I remember thinking I could never live without you
I remember wanting to forget the past and start again
Why didn’t that work out?
I remember slowly slipping away from you, the distance ever increasing
I remember falling in love with someone else
I remember you supporting me
I remember the days and months that went by without speaking to you
I remember always being able to pick up where we left off
I remember telling you Im ready to settle down, I think
You insist you want another chance. You tell me that my destiny is entwined with yours. You tell me no one else can love me like you do. I know this is true. I’ve always known. The problem is, I do not love you in the same way. The thing is, if destiny wanted us to be together, it would have happened a long time ago. Im sorry.
I will always remember. You will always remember. The one thing that will always be ours.